It’s days like this where I need you so much. Laying my head right next to yours, thinking about everything else but the topic at hand. And saying to you how much I love you.
But then there are other days. Every other day than those few days, where we fight, or we argue, or we sit there and not speak to each other because I’m too scared to talk to you like I always was.
Conflicted, broken, but slightly ok

So many memories lost and gone. A year and 4 months dwindled away. All because of decisions I made and the way I feel. I want to just hug you and kiss you and tell you I’m sorry, but that wouldn’t be fair to you. And I’m not going to do anything else to you ever again

God dammit I’m going to miss that smile, that laugh, those eyes, the looks your give me, your humor, your music taste, everything. I’m going to fucking miss it all so much as I already do now